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Name: Andrew
Birthday: 5/15/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: My wife, Music, Art, Movies, Challenges, Coffee, Autumn, Change, God, Helping...
Expertise: This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home
With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25
This is the straw, final straw in the
Roof of my mouth as I lie to you
Just because I'm sorry doesn't mean
I didn't enjoy it at the time
You're the only thing that I love
It scares me more every day
On my knees I think clearer
Goodness knows I saw it coming
Or at least I'll claim I did
But in truth I'm lost for words
What have I done it's too late for that
What have I become truth is nothing yet
A simple mistake starts the hardest time
I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time
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AIM:  lackluster673
MSN: ulrich6@gmail.com
Member Since:
2/28/2005
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| I know that I've abandoned Xanga like an old plaything, and it just doesn't seem right to come back to it on these terms, but I suppose if you don't care or like it, you can stop reading now.
I assume of the three people that started this, I've still got one of you. Anyway, this year is a monumental year in American history. For the first time since the rise of the US as a world super-power, we are on the brink of falling. I believe that if we as individuals do not educate ourselves and rise above the status quo, we will be living in a different nation by the end of our lives. Also, leaving God knows what for our children. Right now, there isn't much that I know of that we can do, but one thing we can still do is vote.
This year we've got more of the same as far as choices go on the Dem or Rep side. The only one of these people that I feel is any different than the rest has been virtually wiped from the mainstream media, and the majority of Americans have no idea who is and what he stands for. That candidate is Ron Paul. Please take some time to check out these videos.
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| It's simply amazing to look back though the post on this site and think about where my life has been and where it is now. I used to feel like such a revolutionary. There was so much happening and so many people involved. I've went from wearing so many different hats to just being what I consider a regular guy. I'm not sure if it's sad, if it's some sort of tragedy, as if my life's purpose has fallen apart... or if it's completely appropriate. From God's perspective, I will assume that some of the changes are not for the better. We don't talk much anymore. The situations of my 'past life' demanded constant conditioning and would never let me stray away from constant devotion and meditation. I'm really just floating along now. Then there's the logical perspective on things. Honestly, I am much happier now. The stress of success no longer looms over me. Lori and I spend a lot more time together. I've got the time to be a father to my baby girl. I can't imagine trying to be a Dad and live the life that I used to . My life pretty much consist of work and play. I go put my time in, and really do what I want to when I'm not. I feel lucky to have what I do.
There is still a part of me that misses the adrenaline rush of responsibility. Being a leader is something that does come naturally. Honestly the transition from leader to follower wasn't that easy, but once I decided to simply stop caring... Life got so much better. I often wonder what God really wants me to be doing right now. Is he pleased that I have found some solace after living so much life at such a young age? Is this my break? We've tried to go to churches. It doesn't work to well. That's a whole other rant and rave. I'll just say that it's so hard to fit into mediocrity. Every other part of my life has transitioned into this normality, but church just won't. I'm better off not going at all than letting the state of the American church become MY normal. So, guess what? We really don't go. I think I have been to church two times in the year 2007.
Not being a part of church really doesn't make me feel like any less of a person. Church in itself really never made me who I was anyway. What shaped me personally was all the different roles I played in it. The part that makes me sad is the part of me that still longs to make a difference. Those dreams aren't dead, but they sure aren't flourishing. I've always got that part of me that's watching and waiting for the right opportunity. I hope that my selfishness can someday be redeemed.
Anyway, it's just weird to look back. I honestly don't know how I've fit so much life into 26 years.
p.s. My daughter wants to be a puppy.
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| This isn't really a post on anything. I just wanted to direct the three people that may check this thing HERE.
That's all.
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| What a buzz all the bloggers are making these days! It seems like just about everybody is pouring their musings into a text box. Are you feeling tempted to start a blog of your own? Here are some ways to bypass the trend. Steps - Find five completely random blogs, and read them daily for a month. After thirty days, you will absolutely dread your self-imposed requirement to read all that dreck. Any blog you create will most likely be on par with what you've been reading. Don't put anyone through that.
- Consider that your voice, even if it is truly a good one, is a tiny peep against the massive wave of tripe out there. The odds of anyone you don't already know finding your blog are low.
- Write on a regular basis in Wordpad instead. If that doesn't satisfy your urge, and you feel that you must post your blog online, then you might just be craving attention and validation--which you'll never truly find in a blog. If you give up on your Wordpad journal after about three days, you'll do the same with a blog that just takes up server space.
- Ask yourself if you really have the time to commit to a blog. What about that treehouse you wanted to build? Or the book you wanted to write? Or the car you wanted to fix up? Or the restaurant you wanted to take your wife to? Or the new career you wanted to pursue? Instead of writing about pretty much nothing, or whining about all the things you wish you were doing instead, start doing something that'd actually be worth writing about. And if it's really worth writing about, you'll be having too much fun doing it to tear yourself away from it.
Tips - If attention and validation is what you're looking for, know that you will get neither from blogging. As above, very few people will ever know that your blog (or you, by proxy) exists. Of those who do find it, a large percentage will be flamers and trolls, who will only post comments to you about how you suck. The remainder of comments posted to your blog will be sappy treacle, which you won't trust as being sincere anyway.
- Consider writing on a wiki instead. Unlike most blogs, wikis like Wikipedia and wikiHow are read by millions of people each month. Several wikiHow authors receive "fan mail" messages every day from appreciative readers. In addition, many authors discover that they enjoy the wiki collaborative writing process more than writing in solitude.
Warnings - The information you post on the Internet is likely to linger for years and years to come, as web pages are archived by "snapshot" services like the Wayback Machine. Once it's out there, you can't take it back. An employer running a Google search on your name years down the line might be turned off by your now documented obsession with your cat.
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